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i’ve been wanting to blog for a long time.  i just keep struggling about what i want to write about.

i’ve had this blog for about 6 months but i have been very inconsistent.  heck, inconsistency seems to be one of the things i’m good at.  my spiritual life is very much the same way.  sure there are moments when  i am close to God, when i’m “spiritual”.  however,  i’d have to say that on the whole, it seems much more like i fail to grasp what Jesus is trying to teach me most of the time.

carving out time to spend with Jesus is one of the hardest things for me (as it is for a lot of us…).  so i figured i might let these two areas of my life intersect for a while.

i’m not naive enough to think writing will help me clean up my spiritual life or even make my walk more consistent, but maybe this experience will help me learn a little…

(photo by *sean via flickr)

Tags: christian walk, church, devotion, HoM, youth ministry

well, tomorrow’s my last day as youth pastor @ cvbc.  feels weird. 

i’m really sad to be closing this chapter but also very excited to for the next.  when i look at the two churches, i see so many differences.  makes me wonder if i’m equipped for hom.  i know i’m probably not equipped, but Jesus is & He’s called me to hom so there is a great deal of excitement.

someone else is teaching tomorrow; that’s a relief.  i don’t have to try to focus on much other than worship.  that will be nice.

looking forward there is so much i’m getting ready to do. over the new few weeks i plan to work through my view of where the ministry currently sits & begin praying about how to advance things from here.

for now, i need to get a little rest & spend some time in prayer so i’m ready to face tomorrow.  i’m sure glad it’s all in God’s hands & not mine.

Tags: church, ministry, resignation, transition, youth ministry

well, i now have an outward reminder of the inward change i’ve experienced since i’ve been at college view.  the students picked a really cool design & is all done.  i couldn’t be happier with it.

this is what my finished tat looks like now that it is completed; right after i took the bandage off & cleaned it.

these students have forever brought me closer to Christ.  the whole time i’ve been trying to point them to Christ, they’ve been pointing me to Christ.

Tags: resignation, tattoo, transition, youth ministry

2 yr old's view of the outside world.

moving from one ministry to another is never easy.  this is something that all pastors must face at some point in their lives.  really, it’s something that all Christians face.

that’s where i’m at.  i feel like my little girl looking out of our gate at the outside world.  waiting for that gate to open.

i have formally accepted a position at a new church, but haven’t told everyone at the old church that i’m leaving.  the pastor and a few key people know, but i haven’t had the chance to tell the congregation at large.

that puts me right inside the gate, looking out.  uneasy to stay and uneasy to fling the gate open.  at this point i’m fairly sure God is about to fling it open & that’s scary.  scary but exciting.

i’ve spent a lot of time today working with a leader who is uneasy about this whole thing.   honestly, she’s one of the best youth leaders i’ve ever met.  she has a HUGE heart and loves students.  she is unsure about how the church will react to my leaving.  so we’ve prayed together today (over the internet…) & we both know that as long as we are following God we can’t go wrong.  He might not be doing what we want but whatever He has, it’s the best thing.

oh yeah…welcome to my blog!  wish i would have started it long ago…

Tags: church, pastor, transition, youth ministry